DISCLAIMER: This is not a fan account, just pure concert feels. And the photo is not mine. Photo Credit to Arnel Gonzales.
Last night, December 7, 2014, was one of the best and most important night in my entire life. It was the night when 방탄소년단 (BTS), my babies, performed LIVE in front of me. It was 2014 BTS Live Trilogy in Manila Episode II: The Red Bullet –their first concert overseas and the first concert that I have ever attended.
Yep, we’re soulmates, right?
It is every fangirl’s dream to meet their favorite celebrities and I never thought that mine would come true this fast. To be honest, I still can’t believe that I saw them in flesh, directly with my own eyes, last night. I still can’t grasp that I heard them sing my favorite songs without any media other than the sound system. I still can’t comprehend that I just sang and danced WITH THEM. Up until now, I am still in the middle of asking, “Did last night really happen, or was all just a dream”, because everything seemed so perfect and majestic and awesome and too good to be true.
Watching them through my laptop and watching them live is so different. On-stage, they’re all just a big ball of energy, passion, talent, and art, rolled into one. More than realizing how handsome they really are, it is witnessing how excellent and passionate they are while doing what they do best was the real highlight of the night, for me. Their genuine smiles while they took in the crowds support and love for them, as we sing with them in almost every song, was priceless. For all these moments, all I could think was, “this is why I’m an ARMY, this is what I signed up for.” I have never been so proud.
I am happy that Bangtan has a very supportive and lovely fandom. Despite the chaos in the airport, unsuccessful projects, and booming numbers of jeje fans, I still think that our fandom is beautiful and I know that we will still improve in the future. Looking at the photos of the yellow ocean last night and remembering the consistent energy of almost everyone during the concert, I know that Bangtan is blessed with such wonderful supporters. I am glad that I’m in that ocean and I am planning to stay in that wonderful ocean until the next episodes.
Just like everyone, I never wanted that night to end. It felt like the shortest two-hours of my life. Unfortunately, everything has to end. I can never choose the right words to express how I felt after the concert. It was like all the emotions I could ever muster was bursting all at the same time and all I could do was to sit and stare into nothingness. I wanted to climb up to the stage and run after them. I wanted to scream and shout and keep dancing like there’s no tomorrow. I wanted to cry like a baby and demand for them to come back. I want to replay everything over and over and make that night my reality, forever. I want to move on and forget everything so I could also achieve something.
I don’t even know how to end this entry.
HAHA. I am still dazed about everything. As of now, what I really want is to see them again; and I am planning to, I hope to. They promised that they will comeback, so I’ll just pray that that promise will come true and that I’ll be able to witness it, again. So I’ll just end this with “‘Til next time Bangtan”. Talk about the lamest ending, ever.
This was written on December 8, 2014.